I've been away from the blog for longer than I had hoped. As it turns out, being a working mom is hard! Things are actually going pretty smoothly, though, and the whole deal has been much easier than I was expecting.
Although I was really looking forward to returning to work, I was pretty anxious in the last few days of my leave. I felt like throwing up for a few days straight, especially when I thought about actually leaving the house in work clothes for the first time in six months. Alice was not cooperating with the practice bottle-feeding and I was fairly certain she would starve once I left the house. I was also afraid that I'd forgotten how to do my job, and possibly even how to work at all.
Luckily, Alice got her act together and had no problem eating once she really had to perform under pressure. And though there had been some changes at work, and I was once again stepping into a production almost half-way through, I didn't forget how to work OR do my job. I'm incredibly lucky to work with an awesome group of people who help make my job easy when they can, and fun when they can't make it easy.
I won't lie, I got a little teary-eyed as I drove away from the house that first day back and it took a few hours before I didn't feel like throwing up, but it was so good to be back in the saddle and things went so well for Jon and Alice at home that I didn't have to worry about them at all.
|Leaving the house, first day back.|
I've been back in the office for almost a month now and am still trying to work out all the kinks and settle into a groove. Part of that challenge is finessing Alice's schedule so she eats and sleeps at times that are convenient (relatively speaking) for us parents. Ideally, she won't spend the entire evening fighting with us about who gets to eat and sleep when. I think we're zeroing in on a workable routine.
I am so thankful for the amount of time I got to devote solely to Alice but I am really happy to be back in the office. I've been enjoying it so much, I almost feel guilty about it. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to work from home like Jon is, or work part-time, or maybe just stash her under my desk at the office, but I need a little more work in my life than keeping up with housework. It's a good thing too, because I can't afford to be a stay-at-home mom!
And really, when part of your job description is organizing "Snack Friday," how bad can work be?